You ever have a day that just drags and goes by so slow. It is just mentally exhausting, talk about between 50 and 70,000 thoughts going through the mind daily. The bible speaks about how David encouraged himself, he strengthened himself in the Lord.
“6 Now David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was [a]grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God.” (1 Samuel 30:6 NKJV)
The days and moments come where there is no prophet, no preacher, no worship team, no retreat, no conference, just a form of distress. If we can’t come to a place where we learn how to strengthen ourselves in the Lord, we will only get but so far!
Today has been a hard day! Can I just say that? You ever have a day that is just not easy. Nothing technically happened, and from the outside the day looked normal but internally it has not been easy. I go into “moods” or a “state of mind and heart” where I want to go back to the familiar. These are the days I want to unblock the number, these are the days I want to go and sit in the cut and have random conversations all night with that person, these are the days I want to go for a random drive and just talk with that person. These are also the days of decision! These are the days where I show the Lord, I choose you! These are the days I deny myself and pick up the cross and follow him. These are the moments where we make a conscious decision to do or not to do. I am truly in a place where I am forcing myself to not make decisions based on my emotions and can I tell you its not easy! Can I be super honest? Saturday was an awesome day, but by the time the evening came I was sad. My mind was all over the place and to make myself feel better I wanted to do what I always do. But instead, I went home and I said if you have to cry yourself to sleep then do it but don’t you dare turn back! I have to tell myself that so much, probably more often than it should be.
What am I saying?
This is for the people that chose to not unblock the number another day, that chose to not go have that drink, that chose to not light that joint, that chose to not call that girl, not sign on to that site, that decided to not go back in whatever way that means for you. I so get how hard it is. But I also know it gets easier, not everyday is like this. However, these days are real and these are the moments when you and I make a choice. The same way David encouraged himself in the Lord, I have to encourage myself, and so do you. I want to give you an applause today, a “Good job”, a “I’m proud of you”, a “Keep going, you got this” on days like this. The hard days, the days you feel it most and no one has a clue. We all have triggers that bring us to this place emotionally and that is okay, but we cannot make decisions based on it, and we cannot stay here long!
This is real talk, this is truth. It sounds easy to keep going forward, it sounds mature, but it is not easy. Be encouraged! Keep moving forward! I say this to myself and I say this to you also. We can do all things through him who gives us strength (Philippians 4:13)!
“Then He said to them all, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross[b]daily, and follow Me.24 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it.25 For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and is himself destroyed or lost?” (Luke 9:23-25 NKJV)
“13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have [d]apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.” (Philippians 3:13-14 NKJV)
– Kristen ❤